I woke up and get my coffee after I washed my face and brushed my shiny teeth, he he he
I always took a special care of my teeth, so they look so shiny and I'm pride of it. Well, I won't to talk about my teeth furthermore.
I looked over the window, and I found the heavy rain falls still singing, tik tak tik tak...on top my attic roof. I always felt miserable when the day getting dark yet the rain falls accompanies the dark ambiance. Chinese people said, when a person has a mood swing when the weather turned dark, so that person might affected by 抑鬱症 ( Yi Yu Zheng) = disorder depression. It's just like a melancholy feeling. The person felt so sad and wistful without reason, so do I at this moment. I believe 100% about what they said (I mean Chinese people), if the mood swings caused disorder depression. In the other case, mood swings may be caused from premenstrual syndrome, menopause, pregnancy, stress and depression (it's only for women).
I thought I was losing my mind, I got irritability, mood swings, bored and on top of all that I felt have no energy. I don't know why and what is the reason. Might be mood swings and irritability has an emotional aspect as well.
My Chinese traditional medicine doctor told me that I'm fatigued. I must take enough rest and relax in my daily habit. It's common in Taiwan and other Chinese countries to go to traditional doctors for some kind of diseases. I've done what the doctor said, but I still miserable when day turned dark and rainy. I only know that a mood swing is defined as a mood that changes erratically, often going from one extreme to another. The other doctor (not traditional) I've visited suggested that I might use hormone replacement therapy. He said this is most suitable for me, but I thought I got a mood swing not because I have premenstrual. It caused another reason.
The rain turned more torrential, I'm afraid it would cause flooding again in my town and unfortunately my house is close to the river. By the way,I heard a roving greengrocer come closer and stopped right in front of my house. Soon after most my neighbors go out for shopping vegetables, these recent weather not allowed us to go to market. I took my umbrella and slowly I open the door and gathered with them to shop vegetable and I got my favorite tomato, lettuce and I also bought some eggs. I think I want to cook Egg Drop Soup (蛋花湯= Dan Hua Tang). It will be nice dishes for cold weather.
Well, maybe with cook some of my favorite dishes could swing my mood from bad mood to happy mood. But, I'm not sure. I still felt I would to cry, and yelling. I took my phone and called my friend, I hope she would be willing to hear my grievances. I wait for a few minutes, but nobody answered the phone, oh ghost! I completely lonely.
I pondered and listened to the sound of the rain. The melody is unchanged and aligned. I keep listening and I found myself a little bit better. Now I know, I need to calm down before I shout to at anyone. I don't want this anxiety holding me back, and I look like a person has multiple personalities. I thought meditation is one of those ways I would try soon.
I know that everyone has changes of heart and mood swings; that's actually a normal part of being human. So I didn't worry, not only I am who have such this feeling, but also many women even men could have a mood swing.
After a couple of hours later.
Now is three o'clock at noon, Taiwan time GMT+8. I finished my first meditation, I feel more calm and I can enjoy the melodious sound of the rain falls outside. I'd recommend if some day you get a mood swing, you really to make yourself calm down at first, and then listening to the melodious music or playing musical instruments. May also you could integrate relaxation therapies anything from meditation, yoga and deep breathing exercise. (From my personal experiences)
This is the music I was listening to.
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